I have a theory, granted, it’s probably not an original theory. I brought this up the other night, and, the last few days have just confirmed it.
There’s a Switchfoot song called “24″, and there’s this one part that has always stuck out to me::
And You’re raising these twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
With all of my symphonies
In twenty four parts
So, I’m 25 now, but it still works. Anyhow, I have this theory that we are all made up of different parts, and they aren’t always in sync with each other. That, figuratively, we all have multiple personalities. Now, I’m not really going to get into specifics about what brought me to this, but it’s just crazy how I know one thing and do another. Believe one way, feel another. Love one thing, love another.
Depending on the day depends on what I think, what I believe, what I feel, what I love. And, it scares the heck out of me sometimes. It’s one of the things about myself that constantly remind me that I am weak, that I am human. Don’t get me wrong, I have tons of flaws. But this constant double-mindedness, of thoughts that aren’t of Him, are the things that truly make me feel out of control.
It’s good to continually realize that you’re human, realizing what you’re made of – the flesh and the Spirit. They’re constantly wrestling inside each of us, I guess, and constantly making us know one thing and do another. Believe one way, feel another. Love one thing, love another.
Paul had it right when he said Romans 7, “21It seems to be a fact of life that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. 22I love God’s law with all my heart. 23But
there is another law at work within me that is at war with my mind.
This law wins the fight and makes me a slave to the sin that is still
within me.”
So, all of my 25 hearts and then some. It’s in me, and having these multiple personalities is the tension of being a believer, of wrestling with who I am and who I’m supposed to be. So, maybe the best thing to do is pray the prayer that Jon Foreman wrote in the next lines of “24″::
I want to be one today
Centered and true
I’m singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
You’re raising the dead in me
How many parts do you have?
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August 12, 2006 at 3:07 am
Great song! Great post! It seems like the harder I try to surrender to God, the more torn I feel. My flesh and spirit are constantly battling over the smallest things. I struggle so much with the 24000 voices I face every day “because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart (another great song – ‘World’s Apart’ by Jars of Clay.”
August 12, 2006 at 5:16 pm
beautiful writing, woman.
September 1, 2006 at 3:28 pm
i really enjoyed this Lindy, good stuff