25 in One

I have a theory, granted, it’s probably not an original theory.  I brought this up the other night, and, the last few days have just confirmed it.

There’s a Switchfoot song called “24″, and there’s this one part that has always stuck out to me::

 And You’re raising these twenty four voices

With twenty four hearts

With all of my symphonies

In twenty four parts

So, I’m 25 now, but it still works.  Anyhow, I have this theory that we are all made up of different parts, and they aren’t always in sync with each other.  That, figuratively, we all have multiple personalities. Now, I’m not really going to get into specifics about what brought me to this, but it’s just crazy how I know one thing and do another.  Believe one way, feel another.  Love one thing, love another.

Depending on the day depends on what I think, what I believe, what I feel, what I love.  And, it scares the heck out of me sometimes.  It’s one of the things about myself that constantly remind me that I am weak, that I am human.  Don’t get me wrong, I have tons of flaws.  But this constant double-mindedness, of thoughts that aren’t of Him, are the things that truly make me feel out of control.

It’s good to continually realize that you’re human, realizing what you’re made of – the flesh and the Spirit.  They’re constantly wrestling inside each of us, I guess, and constantly making us know one thing and do another. Believe one way, feel another.  Love one thing, love another.

Paul had it right when he said Romans 7, “21It seems to be a fact of life that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. 22I love God’s law with all my heart. 23But
there is another law at work within me that is at war with my mind.
This law wins the fight and makes me a slave to the sin that is still
within me.”

So, all of my 25 hearts and then some. It’s in me, and having these multiple personalities is the tension of being a believer, of wrestling with who I am and who I’m supposed to be.  So, maybe the best thing to do is pray the prayer that Jon Foreman wrote in the next lines of “24″::

I want to be one today

Centered and true

I’m singing Spirit take me up in arms with You

You’re raising the dead in me

How many parts do you have?

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Who Knew?

These things are fun. It might be true . . .

 

A Random Thought With Strange Significance

So, I love the feeling of my heart beating when I’m really tired or almost asleep.  Have you ever noticed how it seems to beat so much harder?  The beat literally moves my entire body.  It’s pretty awesome.

It’s almost like a reminder that even though you’re not really awake, you’re still alive.

I think there’s a metaphor in there somewhere.

 

Unintentional Hiatus

hi·a·tus: (h-ts) n. pl. hi·a·tus·es or hiatus
A gap or interruption in space, time, or continuity; a break: “We are likely to be disconcerted by… hiatuses of
thought” (Edmund Wilson)

Beginning the blog was the easy part. Now, trying to decide what to write about is the hard part. So, just to kick off the first official blog, here’s a Top 5 list to catch everyone up on my life (I write that like people really care, but it does seem like people like reading others blogs, so I’ll go with it.)

Top 5 Things on My Mind:

1.) The news:: Now that I’m a reporter, it seems like news is all I think about. I’ve become addicted to CNN.com and, for the sarcastic news and for “truthiness” as Colbert calls it, I tune into Comedy Central’s The Daily Show with Jon Stewart and The Colbert Report nightly. I’ve always kept up with what’s going on in the world, but my new job has definitely made me more aware. Kinda fun.

2.) My roommate:: Amanda G is searching for a job. She needs one soon, and, seeing as though we are dependent on each other for bills, I need her to find one! Pray for that.

3.) Initiative:: I emailed Jeff Noble the other day to let him in a little on this, but I, the girl who ALWAYS answers last in class, procrastinates til time’s out, and let’s things, not makes things, happen, took INITIATIVE. I’ve been attending a church called Fellowship Bible Church in Rogers. It’s what most would call a mega-church, which, honestly, turned me off a little in the beginning b/c I’m so adjusted to small churches and church plants. Well, I decided to get involved there for many reasons which I won’t really get into, and I volunteered to co-lead a small group Bible study. I met with the leaders of the Singles ministry Monday, and training for new leaders begins Thursday night. It should be pretty great. I’m excited about it!

4.) Talladega Nights – The Ballad of Ricky Bobby:: So, sue me. I’m a huge Will Ferrell fan. Next to Vince Vaughn, he’s probably the funniest man in movies. His new movie comes out this weekend (which co-stars John C. Reily who is surprisely tall and thin in person). Me and my fam have plans to see it Sunday. All I have to say is his sons names are Walker and Texas Ranger. Funny stuff.

5.) YouTube.com:: Over the last month of having high speed internet at my house, I have become an addict of YouTube. And, tonight, I had a really funny video picked out to blog, when, suddenly, after a half hour of searching, I realized that YouTube doesn’t support WordPress yet! Grrr. . . Here’s the link for it. It’s from the Colbert Report, and it’s poking fun at the media’s coverage of the war in Israel (which isn’t really hard to do if you’re clever enough). It’s a short clip, and should give you a good giggle.

Well, first blog down. Hopefully, many more to come . . .

Oh, and if I had a #6 on my list, it would be Paul Eells. I woke up this morning to the sounds of the radio and the story of his car accident. I called my brother immediately to make sure he knew. So sad, so sad. “Touchdown! Arkansas!” *tear*

 

Why Hello There

Well, after much debating, I’ve begun a blog. Hmmm, we’ll see how it goes.

Blogging is a strange thing to me. It’s like online dating. It’s there. Supposedly real people do it, but it’s the weirdest thing. All of this “online community” business seems somewhat unnatural. Writing to no specific person, letting people read your random thoughts. As a self-proclaimed “writer”, it’s still weird for me.

But, it seems like fun. Jeff (below) keeps telling me to start a real blog (my other semi-blog is on
myspace, which doesn’t seem to really count in the blogging world). I always have thoughts whirling around in my head, so I guess I could just go ahead and keep peeps posted on me through this deal.

And, in Phillip’s terms, I will try my best from having a blahg. Go to his site if you don’t know what I’m talking about.